Jan 11, 2010

How lovely to be a woman, the wait was well worthwhile

Hi friends! How was your weekend? Here's how mine started Friday morning.

I overslept. When I was 75% finished drying my hair, my hair dryer started making weird noises. As in, it wasn't pumping the right amount of air. I managed to get my hair dry enough so I wouldn't catch pnemonia walking outside and then spent 10 minutes cleaning off my car from an inch of snow. (There was a delightful layer of ice underneath it). After about an hour and a half at work I got a migraine (it didn't go away until I was in bed that night), and I had to cancel plans with a dear friend whom I haven't seen in forever!

I am happy to report that the rest of the weekend did get better, and among the things I did was a lot of thinking.I started thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life. And then I got frustrated that at 26 years old I still don't know the answer to that question. I thought about all the things I wanted to be when I was younger. Singer, journalist, writer, author, teacher, mother, activist, President. (I'm sure there are more but I can't think of them now).


But what am I doing about any of that? I'm not even sure if someone asked me what my dream job is, I would have anything to say. I am confident, capable, efficient, and a hard worker. I can adapt to a new environment and usually get along with people pretty well. That's the good and bad news. Good because employers like all those things. Bad because I don't have just one thing I'm good at - which makes it a lot harder to figure out what I want to be doing, not just what I can do.*

When the mister and I have kids one day I want to be an example to them to follow their dreams and to pursue what makes you happy. But how am I going to do that when I don't even know what that is?

Has anyone else experienced this? How did you flesh out what you wanted to do? Any suggestions? Thanks for listening to my rambling, readers!


*I hope this doesn't come off as sounding conceited - I'm just trying to think out loud about some stuff.

10 comments:

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Oh dear - that is a horrible start to Friday, which is supposed to be fabulous day. I am so sorry to hear that. I am glad your weekend got better.

I totally relate to how you feel. I feel the same way. I have an idea of what my dream job is (owning a book store) but have no idea if I could ever achieve it (requires capital, which I don't have). My frustration is increased by the fact that I have now invested so much in my education, I feel like I am kind of stuck working these long hours... I like my job and all, but I hate that I leave the house at 6:30 am and get back to my car at 6:30 pm. And then sometimes work on the weekends. It's just exhausting but i Feel like this is the life I signed up for by getting my MBA.

But I know I need to remember how lucky I am to have this job. There are so many people who would want this career so I just need to embrace it. I think I will feel better about it once I am more comfortable in my job and feel like i actually know what I am doing. I am not at that point yet.

Oh how I wish I could reach through your computer and give you a hug!! I think you are wonderful! Be patient with yourself - you will figure out what your heart is yearning for eventually. The great thing is that you are still asking - you aren't settling!

Nicole said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I feel all the time like I totally wasted all the time spent on my undergraduate degree because I want nothing to do with that field (anthropology and sociology).

I still haven't found my dream job, but here are some things you might try to help find yours:

1. Look at what your skills are and find a job that caters to your skills. I realized I enjoy doing my taxes (I know, I'm crazy), so I've decided to go back to school for accounting.

2. Look at what you love to do in your free time or volunteer work, and try to find a job doing that. Maybe it'll just start out part-time, but if you're lucky it might become a career. I love to travel, so I tried going into the travel industry for a while. It turned out to be depressing sending the rich people on vacation while I stayed at home, so that didn't work out. But I got out there and tried it. Now I'm thinking that I really love zoos, so I might try to find an accounting job at a zoo.

I hope that helps a little. We're in a tough place in our lives right now.

Gracie said...

I agree, especially about being a "jack of all trades". I remember how I got my ACT score back with a computer generated report of what college majors would suit you well. Every single major was checked!
So I went to school as a graphic design major on art scholarship.
Then I changed it to pharmacy and now I'm a pharmacist!!!
I sometimes feel like I "wasted" tuition and time in art classes, but I loved them, so it isn't really a waste.

Amber (Girl with the red hair) said...

I think my dream job is an INCREDIBLY flexible work schedule. Eventually, I would love to be working full-time at home - mostly writing. So that is what I'm going to be working towards over the next 5-10 years!

Then again, my ideas might completely change in the next 5-10 years also!

itsassimpleasthat said...

I feel like I wake up every single day with a new desire or a new passion or love. It is so hard to pinpoint something. At the same time I really need to work on just trying things rather than avoiding them because I am afraid of failure. I get these big ideas in my head and I really want to execute them but then that little voice is my head shoves me back in my place. Hm, its challenging but I hope 2010 will help me turn some things around or turn some ideas into realities.

Emily Ward said...

Awww, I'm the good friend!! :-D

I loved your post today even though it was riddled with angst and uncertainties because I don't think that anyone has it all figured out. The most important thing is to surround yourself with people that inspire you and challenge you. What greater dream could we have than that and what greater example for our children? Life and dreams are so much more than an occupation. You didn't sound conceited at all and I hope that I didn't sound preachy. I'm in the same angst ridded uncertainy boat sista but it is good to have the company. <3

Tracie said...

At age 26-almost 27 I know exactly what you are saying!

sleepyjane said...

I don't know what I want to do either so I'm no help. :( At least I know how you feel eh?

Rose Hill said...

I completely understand this and I think you know that ;)

Just imagine having to go on job interviews and they always want to know "Where do you think you'll be in 5 years?", "What would be your perfect job?"

How do you answer that when 1)you know they want you to say "working for you!"
2)you don't really even know the answer!

UGH!

Dani said...

I find as I keep reading your posts that we have been traveling parallel paths still, as if we had never left of being close at seventeen. I look at all of the people from our old circle and feel like compared to everyone, I don't have it "together" yet. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, except that I know what I DON'T want, and the idea of giving up the steady paycheck I've enjoyed for almost a decade scares the bejeezus out of me. So no, it's not just you.

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