Apr 25, 2010

Coping

Grief is a weird, weird, thing. I've been sad throughout the weekend on and off, but I've had at least two different instances where I realized I was more upset than I initially thought.

*I was at Costco Friday evening and I read the number of items in a box incorrectly. When my friend casually corrected me, I burst into tears.

*I was driving and got in the left lane, only didn't see the car I cut off until he laid on his horn. I felt so bad I waved and kept saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry," over and over even though I know the driver couldn't hear me. (I was so shaken up I pulled over at the next shopping center and just sat for ten minutes).

Add the effects of Prednisone (which the doctor told me to take after my appointment Friday - more on that later), and a little pms and you have quite the weekend.

I may not be blogging as often this week - I feel like I need to ease my way back into it. But thanks to all of you for your sweet comments, emails, and even phone calls. I really appreciate it.

What are things that have helped you cope when you're going through a hard time?

9 comments:

Kinsey Michaels said...

Awww :( you poor thing, I wish I could give you a hug. I don't even know what I could do to offer for advice, because either way it's such a sad situation. I would suggest maybe getting involved in some kind of weekly class or ritual that can take your mind off things. When dealing with a breakup, which is a different kind of grief, I felt that it helped spending time with friends, because I enjoyed their company and it helped take my mind off things. That, and buying one of my favorite TV shows on DVD and just zoning out watching episodes.

Nicole said...

I can't even imagine what you're going through. The best advice I can give it to keep yourself surrounded by those that you love. But also allow yourself some space if you need it.

Anonymous said...

Hugs to you from far away. If you have a dog nearby, hug it's neck; paint your nails your favorite color; splurge on an over-priced, calorie rich coffee; spoon 10 minutes longer with Ben tomorrow morning; think of your favorite moment with Madison and allow yourself to smile... you are so loved! - Annie

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Hugs to you. :( Grief is tough. It hits you at the randomest times. I still still be hit with a wave of grief when I think about people I have lost in my life.

I am just so sorry. I know that is cliche and it is what everyone says, but it's just so sad and tragic. :(

When I am having a tough day, I look at photos of my nephews. And I treat myself to a latte or a mocha. And eat peanut butter cups. And go for a run to clear my head.

Hang in there, love!

hannahkaty.com said...

Hi Becky:

I just read your last post and I am so sorry for your loss. I know the feeling, as if one tiny nudge or offset can you send you straight into tears mode. I think the most important thing to remember is that it is ok to be sad and devastated and not on your A-game. No one is expected to be that way in loss and grief. Take care of yourself, go easy, and try to do little things that will make you happy throughout the week. You will be in my thoughts and prayers love.

Best,

Hannah Katy

Kyria said...

I am sorry for your loss. My uncle died last week and I still think it has not hit me. I am sure when I go home and head to his house to watch Greys Anatomy (he lets [used to let] me even though he doesn't [didn't] like it) I will get a kick into reality. Right now I am pretending nothing happened. I know what you mean about little things bugging you... I am also feeling very fragile. I am sending a hug your way... Things will get better...

Gracie (Complicated Day) said...

Ok, I'm going to get all pharmacist on you here. You can totally blame the prednisone. It's actually called "steroid psychosis" (No! You aren't psychotic! But it's a funny name) and it's a normal reaction.
It sounds like you're handling pretty well though, since last week one of my patients took her second dose of a steroid pack, then went outside and punched her neighbor's dog for barking too loudly.
Haha.

Darcie said...

Reading has always helped me. After my mom died I felt drawn to books about orphans for some reason but it helped make me feel like I wasn't alone. It just helps be getting out of those feelings for a little while.

Joanna Goddard said...

oh my goodness, becky, i'm so, so sorry to hear about your friend. it's true that grief comes in waves. hang in there! i'll be thinking of you this weekend. xoxo

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