Sep 1, 2010

The shift

There's been a shift in me lately, and I like it. Maybe it's because I'm turning 27 soon and I feel like late twenties means I'm really an adult and people will take me more seriously. (Whether that's true or not remains to be seen). Maybe it's because I have a few years of marriage under my belt and while I'm not an expert by any means I think the mister and I are out of the initial newlywed stage and we've found solid footing. Maybe it's because I've enjoyed the summer of me, and I'm approaching fall with anticipation and prioritizing what's important, but whatever it is, I feel good.
I've always been confident in who I am, but this is different. This is a coming into my own in a whole new way. I think I was a little shaken when I first gained weight after Ben and I got married - that was a problem that I'd frankly never had to deal with before. I'm still working at getting to my goal weight but in the meantime, I'm good. I'm embracing my curves, I'm achieving a more active lifestyle, and I'm learning what kind of styles work for me - not just with how I look but that work with my personality as well. (I used to think the only way to look dressy was to wear suits - thankfully I've realized that's not the case, especially because dresses are way more my style!)

Danielle recently wrote a great post about aging. One of the things she mentioned was she sees as people get older they seem to want to hold onto their youth more and more. I used to feel this way - when I was turning 21, and even 22, I remember wanting to stay that age for a long time - partially because I was very happy with where I was, but also because I didn't know what life held for me in future years and I wasn't sure I wanted to deal with that uncertainty yet. Now I'm looking at ages as another year to learn more, and even if I don't know what the future holds it'll be an adventure finding out!

I've also been thinking about what I've discovered about myself this year. How I can be strong when I think I can't - even if it only means still being able to make dinner while I feel crappy. I've also learned it's okay to ask for help when you need it, even if just means having a good cry.

I'm happy - kind of obnoxiously so. Life happens. Things don't go as planned. But for now? This shift? I'm good.


(Photo: ffffound)

14 comments:

Diana Mieczan said...

That is wonderful...I felt a change in me about a year ago....I felt so much better about myself and the world around me:)
Lovely post!

Kisses

Ps: I will be hosting a really lovely GIVEAWAY today… so please join in !!!!

Kinsey Michaels said...

Wonderful post Becky! That's the best feeling in the world, to accept that you're coming into your own and embracing everything about life. I'm 24 and definitely still in that awkward phase of not wanting to age, and always be young!

Breathe Gently said...

I'm heading towards that change and that acceptance, but I'm not quite there yet. Hopefully a little bit of travelling will kick it into me - it usually does the trick. :)

lucythevaliant said...

I'm so happy that you're happy!!

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Great post. Who I am as an individual has shifted so much as I have progressed through my 20s. I still have things that stress me out, but I am kinder to my body. I try not to insult my body like I used to. I know who I am, I know what I want and what I don't want. I'm way more independent - almost too dependent, I fear, but I guess that is better than being not independent enough! I can't believe this is the last year of my 20s. I don't *feel* like I should be turning 30 in February. But ready or not, here it comes!

Mandy said...

I only claim 25 but we both know I'm older than that. It is important to embrace where you are, to know what works and what doesn't work for you. I am a huge fan of being happy in the momentith yourself and am glad that you're at a place where you're happy.

Gracie (Complicated Day) said...

Good post, and good points about aging (even the early stages of aging in the 20's!). I agree, too, that you should not just choose clothes that work for your body shape but also your personal style. I mean, what's the point otherwise? Your clothes should make you happy! I suppose it would be flattering for me to wear black dress slacks every single day, but it is so much more fun to wear sailor style wide leg navy slacks with buttons, haha!

Emily Jane said...

This has been my year of change too, and I'm happy for you being happy :) As we get older I think we definitely become wiser, and longing for youth can also happen at the same time of shaping up and cutting out things that aren't good for us, as well as learning new things about ourselves and the things that are. Yay for growing up! :)

Amber (Girl with the red hair) said...

I feel SO MUCH OLDER than I am. This year I want to slow down and be young :-)

Love this post, lady. You are fabulous!

Nora said...

You're almost 27? Me too! When's your birthday!? I'm starting to embrace the idea of me growing older as well. For some reason I have it in my head that 32 is going to be a very good year. No idea why though :)

Kyla Roma said...

I love the obnoxiously happy part- I try to live in that place of recognizing what's in the moment and being there to enjoy it. I feel like I'm so lucky to have this little corner of happiness, I had better revel in it because who knows what life will bring! :)

Also, I need your birthday & address so I can send you something pretty :)

Ashley Paige said...

i love, love, LOVE this post. be obnoxiously happy. you go, girl :) i also love that we have super close birthdays. let's each plan to have a glass of wine for each other that week! <3

Stevie said...

This is so, so great. I'm so happy that you're so happy! You wrote this so eloquently.

I always felt differently about my age. I was always the youngest in my class and in my group of friends, so I couldn't wait to get older! I turn 30 in less than 2 months, and I think having that attitude my whole life is helping me right now. Most of my friends turned 30 and freaked out, but I'm actually looking forward to it :-)

Jess said...

Good for you. I'm 32 (NEXT WEEK! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!), and I'm so much more okay with myself now than I've ever been before. I don't mind the lines around my mouth, because they're from laughing with loved ones. And the grey hair that keeps growing back in my left eyebrow? Well. Whatever. That's what tweezers are for.

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