Oct 7, 2010

You are my biggest leap

I know an anniversary is only supposed to be one day - but I didn't want to post two sappy things yesterday so it's carrying over! I found this on Em's blog awhile back, and it blew me away. It's so beautifully written. (I bolded the lines that especially resonated with me).
 How many lives did I sense your nearness? But merely saw your hair round a corner. Watched you disappear into a crowd. Never worked up the courage to ask you to dance. Or had too much pride and never looked back. Lost your number in some trick of fate. How many times did I mutter your name?

I have imagine myself between the flames and the leap and wondered: Could I? Would I?


Do you remember that February night at Lake Michigan? We ripped off our clothes and ran for the water and screamed at the moon. The snow burned our bare feet. Instincts raged against continuing. Entire histories of biological evolution revolted. And we kept running. Beyond ourselves. We overcame ourselves. Leaped into the water. Became someone else.


I would've jumped. I would've grabbed your hand, looked at you knowingly, and tried to say something spontaneous and poetic like, "You're the fire in the snow. You are my biggest leap. You made my building fall. And like a fiery explosion of flower petals and yellow taffy, you turned all my tragedies into acoustic ballads by lonely boys." And we would've jumped and fallen into the unknown, together.


After years I'm still falling. I still can't wait for you to get home at night. I still sneak glances at you when you're not looking. And my feelings for you still ache to be articulated in the form of birds and fish and water and mountains. I don't know what it means. I still sit in this smoldering rubble and wonder what it means.


Here's me raising my glass to you. May we continue to change into these strangers we lust after. I love you the way stars burn.  (Source)

*Non-sappy posts resume tomorrow - promise!

(Photo: jamieann dot net)

5 comments:

Diana Mieczan said...

Awww...so heartwarming...Kisses

Emily Jane said...

This is GORGEOUS, thank you for sharing, and I am headed to check out her blog right now!

Nora said...

AH! I love it.
Now to meet the man who i can share this with someday... =)
Enjoy the anniversary. There are no rule books that say it has to be only one day!

Mandy said...

You are adorable and this is beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

Darcie said...

I think we all need a little sappy every once in a while. :)

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