Feb 1, 2011

Joys and sorrows

I mentioned yesterday that this weekend was full of joys and sorrows. Let's start with the joy, shall we?

The mister has a job.

*Deep breath* Let me say that again. The mister has a job!

He worked his first shift yesterday and when he came home we talked for a good hour about how encouraging the company is, how he loves it already, and how the atmosphere is fantastic. Where's he working? Here's a hint:
Yeah. It's that kind of awesome.

I cannot begin to tell you how relieved we are at this news. It will take some budget adjusting (as it does anytime there's an influx of money and paychecks), but overall - such a great move for him, and one that will still give him a lot of flex time to draw.

Now onto the sorrow.

My uncle passed away Sunday. He'd been in the hospital for over a week - I hadn't mentioned it on the blog out of respect for my family's privacy, but this will definitely be something I'll be talking/writing about in the coming weeks as I process it.

Bottom line? It sucks. He was forty-five years old. I'm sad, but not processing it fully yet - I think I'm still in denial. There have been so many things to work out this week that I haven't really let myself be sad yet. Right now I'm pissed. (And yes I know that's one of the five stages of grief, but it doesn't make it any easier).

I feel like in the past year or so I've had to deal with death more than I'd imagined I'd have to. There will be some dark posts to come I'm sure, but right now I'm just...waiting for it to sink in.

January's been a rough month. I'd like to scrub it clean and start over. Here's hoping February's better.

12 comments:

Annie said...

Thinking of you, girl. Hang in there and allow yourself to feel whatever it is you are feeling at the moment.

Kyla Roma said...

Aw Becky, I'm so sorry for your loss & the stress leading up to the great news about Starbucks- I wish this year didn't start on such a roller coaster for you and your family <3

Lucy The Valiant said...

Oh, I had a bunch of exclamation points warmed up for the job news, because that's great! (there were a lot more than that) But I'm so, so sorry about your uncle. That's horrible, honey.

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

You & Ben should totally read "How Starbucks Saved My Life". :) So excited for him!

And I am so sorry about your uncle... Such a tough thing to go through. :( He was so so young. :( My thoughts/prayers are with you/your family! Love you!!!

Amber (Girl with the red hair) said...

Ahhh THAT'S the book I was thinking about (r.e. Lisa's comment above!) I think I told you that Lisa had mentioned a book about working at Starbucks and that it was really good. :) So happy for Ben! And you!

I am so sorry about your uncle though. That is incredibly young and I know it was such a shock to your family. I dealt with deaths that rocked me 4 times in 2010 and 3 of those times it was someone under the age of 30 - it's a really hard thing to deal with and leaves you questioning A LOT of things. Just know all your strange feelings, sadness, sorrow, grief, anger etc. are totally normal and let your mind/body/soul grieve.

As always, I'm hear if you need anything! XO

Jess said...

Sending hugs and love. And know I'm here if you need me.

Brittany said...

jeez! time for 2011 to slow down a bit and let you catch your breath.
i'm really sorry for your family's loss...
and overjoyed at ben's news, too.

Lisa said...

I'm so happy that Ben got a job. My boyfriend's brother works at Starbucks and he LOVES it. They're a really great company to work for. And good benefits too! So that is amazing.

And, I am soooo sorry about your uncle. That is so rough. Death is never easy, no matter your age, no matter how it hits you. It's such a difficult concept to deal with. My thoughts are with you & your family as you go through this trying time. <3

Nora said...

I'm so excited for Ben's new job; I hope this means you get lots of free drinks in the future =)

As you know, I'm so sorry for your loss. Death is such an ugly beast; never makes any sense. Sending hugs and love from afar. <3.

Stevie said...

It's fantastic that Ben has a job, especially at Starbucks! Woohoo!

But I'm so, so sorry to hear about your uncle. Take care of yourself and give yourself time to grieve. Also know that everyone grieves differently so do whatever you have to do to process your grief.

Thinking of you! xoxo

Stephany said...

I am so sorry to hear about your uncle, Becky. So young! :( Sending you lots of virtual hugs.

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