Apr 21, 2011

Remembering Rosa

One year ago today my friend Rosa died. (I found out the following morning last year, so I was going to post something tomorrow but decided I wanted to honor her on this day instead).

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In a way I can't believe it's already been a year and in some ways it seems like it's been so much longer because of how often I've thought of her. It's like time did this weird continuum thing where it flew by but slowed down all at once.

I think about all the stupid fights I've had with the mister over the past year and how I'm sure Rosa's husband would have loved to have had one more "stupid" fight. I think about how I need to hold my loved ones close, and really live life to the fullest - not because I'm afraid it's too short (although for Rosa it definitely was),  but because that's the best way to honor her memory. She was always smiling and even when she was irritated about something she'd manage to make a sarcastic remark and laugh about it.

I couldn't have called myself one of Rosa's closest friends, but we could talk as easily as if we'd known each other since childhood. I can still remember her laugh - loud, full, and so contagious! She laughed hard and often.  Her memory has stayed with me a lot this year, and there were so many times when I was stressed or upset and I'd just think of her and automatically smile.

I thought I'd be angry today, but I'm not - I'm just sad. Sad for her husband and family, sad for all the kids who won't get to experience her teaching them, and sad the world didn't have more time with this amazing woman.

It's not lost on me that tomorrow is Good Friday. Rosa had a love for Christ that was so beautiful it shined through everything she did. I know she's in heaven, having a fabulous time, and I'm sure laughing a lot.

I miss you friend.

5 comments:

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

I can't believe it's already been a year. I remember when you posted about this. My heart goes out to her family & her husband especially. I am sure today is a tough day for them and she is especially missed.

Sending hugs, friend!

Gracie (Complicated Day) said...

I definitely empathize with you given our recent grieving. I will say a prayer for her husband on this day - I imagine it is very hard for him.

Amber (Girl with the red hair) said...

I remember when you posted about this too, cannot believe it's been a year. In November my little brothers friend passed away in a car accident and at the end of December a friend from high school passed away from cancer at the age of 22. Since those two incidents I have worked really hard to appreciate life a little more and EVERY TIME I say goodbye to someone I tell them I love them. You just never know.

Sending positive thoughts your way. Tragic loss like this is so difficult. XO

Kelly (She Wears a Red Sox Cap) said...

Beautiful post about your friend. Like you, I have lost people who were much too young. I have to admit that I am not always the best at thinking about them and smiling, I'm more of the tears and sadness type. I know I should appreciate what happy and amazing people they were in life, but I get so sad for those around them who used to enjoy that every single day and now do not. But it's important to be positive and live our own lives in a way that would make them proud. Hugs to you today :)

Moorea Seal said...

i have lost many many friends in my little 24 years of life and I know how this feels. <3 I'm with you.

xo Moorea

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