Jul 11, 2011

On moving

If you follow me on twitter, you already know this, but it's time to share the news on the blog.

It's official. We're moving!

We've been apartment hunting for a little while - and we were hoping to settle into a community a few minutes away from where we live now. We would have been giving up a washer and dryer in our unit, and a dishwasher, but we'd talked about how that would make us live with more intention and focus. However, nothing became available there, and last week it got down to crunch time - we had to make a decision about whether or not we were staying.

I was a little hysterical one night last week, because staying in this apartment was not an option in my mind, but it looked like once again we'd have to suck it up and stay. Overall where we live is not a bad place. But it's tiny (684 square feet), we're on the ground floor in the back of the building so we get almost no sunlight, and our internet connection and cell phone signal is almost laughable because of how slow/non-existent it can be (because of our location).

We were ready to move after fifteen months...but we've been living here for four years.

Something has always come up where the wiser decision is to simply stay, so we have. Ben and I outgrew this apartment a long time ago and it's not so much about space or how we arrange things - I literally feel like we'd be stuck and couldn't move forward in any aspects of our lives until we got out of this place.

We knew we couldn't afford a two-bedroom here, so last week when we went in to the leasing center to talk? I was on the verge of tears. All I could see was us having to re-sign a lease, and while obviously that would be good because we'd still have a place to live, I could see myself resenting our home more and more each month, and I was afraid what that would do to my spirit, and our marriage. (Amazingly, our complex cut us a deal and we are moving into another one-bedroom apartment that's a little bigger, gets waaay more sunlight, and is laid out so differently it feels huge compared to what we're in now).

I was thinking about how this is so much more than just a move, when I found this post from the beginning of the year. I remember writing it and feeling utter despair about many things, one of which was the idea that we'd never move out of this place we were so unhappy in. Reading it made me cry, because this move has been four years in the making.

We're moving pretty soon, so this weekend I wasted no time in starting the packing process - and I can feel my happiness factor getting bigger and bigger with each box I pack.

(Normally this mess would bother me - but I'm so excited we're moving I don't even care!)

I was tweeting all weekend about how excited I was and how much packing I'd gotten done. (For the record, our storage unit off our patio, all our books, dvds, half our closets, and most of our linens are packed!)


I'm so excited for this next step in our lives - because it really feels like we're moving forward...one box at a time.

Have you ever felt this way? What change did you make in your life to move forward?

Happy Monday!

(Psst - have you entered my giveaway yet?)

11 comments:

Megan said...

I'm excited for you! I can't wait to see pictures of the new place, if you decide to post pictures, that is.

We live in a 3-bedroom house rent-free (because Husband's grandparents own the house, and the house is being given to us in their will), but we may have to move out to be closer to school (since we're an hour away). This means downsizing for us, unfortunately. Which would feel like moving backwards to me. HOWEVER, we live in a tiny town right now that has NOTHING, and we'd be moving to a bigger city that has everything, so it's a hard decision to make for us. Do we stay in the bigger house, rent-free and drive an hour for school (Monday through Wednesday for me, and I won't get home until after nine those nights); OR do we move to a bigger city, closer to school and pay rent for a smaller house/apartment? This decision has been the bane of my existence for the past year. :(

Ashley said...

How exciting!! I seriously believe that you are putting positivity out there and getting good things in return. :)

Lucy The Valiant said...

YAY!!! So awesome, I know you've been waiting for this FOREVER! Happy packing!

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

My place looked like that for 3 weeks. It sort of bugged me but I knew it would be worth it! :)

I am in the exact same place you are. I was miserable in my condo, but since I owned it, I thought I was stuck there. It was a fabulous feeling to realize that there was a way out of that condo - and then seeing how easily it all came together was even better.

Happy packing!!

Brittany said...

Becky, that is WONDERFUL! soo happy for you. can't wait to see some pics of the new place!

Amber (Girl with the red hair) said...

I'm so excited for you guys! I definitely found that I was getting like that with our basement suite the last few months. I was resenting it, wasn't keeping it clean and just overall did NOT want to go home!

Even though we are in our townhouse for the long haul I feel way differently about it because I truly do love it and there are so many options for us to make changes/have fun with it!

Good luck with the move, I'm sure it'll be stressful (all moves are) but it will be over in no time!! XO

Vanessa said...

Oh, that is so exciting! Congrats and good luck on the move. :)

Mandy said...

I am so excited that you are moving!! I know this move is something that will make you so much happier. I completely understand the feeling like you're stuck and not being able to move forward, I feel like that with my small town.

Amber @ A Little Pink in the Cornfields said...

Congrats on the big move!! What great news!! Can't wait to see pictures. ;)

Stephany said...

I'm really happy for you guys! I actually *love* moving and the change it brings. :) My mom and I are contemplating another move in September, something bigger since I can *finally* contribute to the finances! (Well, provided I find a job by September, that is.) We're feeling pretty stuck with where we live, too.

I hope the move goes smoothly for you guys!

Kyla Roma said...

I'm so excited for your move, you're going to have such an amazing new life :)

It's neat to see how you're approaching this- I think I'm the opposite about moving than you are- I would rather stay living in normal life until the week before and then pack and go all in one swoop :)

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