After an initial consultation that went way better than expected, and two months worth of testing, today Ben and I have our follow-up with the Reproductive Endocrinologist.
This week also marks a year since I was diagnosed with PCOS. I've come a long way since my soft diagnosis, and I want to take a moment to reflect on it. (Sorry for all the links, but I thought it would be good to have them all in one place!)
I've used a few analogies when talking about PCOS - like straddling a ledge, wondering which side of rock is going to give out first, or being in an ocean with no flotation device, trying to keep my head above water. I've chosen not to apologize for something that's out of my control, and while living in limbo is not something I would have chosen, it's also something to learn from.
I've successfully completed an eight-week sugar detox and for the first time saw my body physically rebel against PCOS symptoms. I've laughed at my diagnosis, and have been surprised by it - in good and weird ways. I've learned it's okay to be scared.
But what I've learned the most in this past year is how much I am surrounded by love. It's been reaffirmed that yes indeed, I married the right man. It's been reiterated how incredible my family is - through prayers, good thoughts, and sweet gestures they've sent me. My friends have been nothing short of amazing - laughing with me, crying with me, and even sending me beautiful jewelry as encouragement. (Even if no one has owned up to it yet!)
This journey is far from over. But today at our appointment I hope to finally talk about the next step. So the biggest difference between now and this time last year?
I'll take it.
(Psst - don't forget to stop by the More Love Letters blog to see about today's 12 Days of Letter Writing request!)