Jul 29, 2013

A little freakout

Ben and I have decided to pursue the IUI and we are really excited for this next step! I want to share as much with you as I can, so I'll be doing what I'm calling "belated blogging." I'll write about experiences as I have them and then post about them a bit later, but I won't talk specific time frames. This allows me to really be in the moment, and then write about it and share it the best way I know how. Thanks so much for the support and understanding as I share! I can't wait to take you all with us on this journey! 

First appointment for the IUI is soon - if everything looks good I can start medicine. There is so much that has to happen - all this prep work and for the past few days we thought we weren't going to be able to do this cycle at all. To say it's been an emotional roller coaster is an understatement - at lunch I sat in my car and cried. What if I can't do this? What if this medicine is horrible and I don't react well to it? What if this whole process doesn't work and it's all for nothing?

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First appointment was great. I was reminded how much we love the staff at our doctor's office. Everything looks great and I can take my first pill. Instead of being worried, now I'm excited. It's time. We're starting something big.

That night, Ben and I were both tired, but I wanted to take a picture - we're starting something big! I asked Ben to smile and he goes "no babe, you always want it to be authentic - I am authentically tired right now, this is the best you get." Ha!
Tired, nervous, hopeful, excited. It might be rough and nerve-wracking and exhausting, but we want to be parents.

This is our life. This is a new beginning.

It starts now. 

11 comments:

Nora said...

Oh, Burrito Ben. I love the authenticity of the picture and how sweet you two are. I think about you guys daily (and always check my phone for a text from you each morning, too!). xo

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Aw, I love Ben's expression in that photo. I am so exited for you guys. I know this is a big step and it's scary to open your hearts to the possibility of getting pregnant, but I am praying so hard for you guys!!

Amanda said...

sticky dust level 5000!!

Sue @ SimonsSistaSaw said...

I'm so excited for the possibility of this for you and Ben, two people who I'll never meet. That's blogging I guess. And thank-you for sharing it - the struggle, the method you've chosen and the process involved. It's eye opening. Best of luck Becky!

Katelin said...

aw that is precious. sending lots of super awesome getting pregnant vibes your way.

Kelly (She Wears a Red Sox Cap) said...

I LOVE Ben's face- the one eye open is just perfect haha. I'm so excited for you guys and with Lisa in the praying really hard! It's going to be the BEST day in blogland when you can tell all of us you are finally pregnant. Like really, I don't care what else happens that day, it's going to be the best day of the year.

amberlee @ Life with a Dream said...

Good luck! I know exactly what you are going through, all the emotions, the roller coaster, it never ends, but itll be SO worth it in the end, one day at a time is the best advice i can give.

The Many Thoughts of a Reader said...

thinking of you!

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

That Ben, he's a keeper. And so are you! So excited for the two of you to take one step further into this journey you've started together!

Stephany said...

Oh, friend. I got chills from this post. I'm so excited for you and Ben. Hugs and prayers!

Amber said...

Love you guys! Thinking of you so much! What a journey!

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