A little freakout

Ben and I have decided to pursue the IUI and we are really excited for this next step! I want to share as much with you as I can, so I'll be doing what I'm calling "belated blogging." I'll write about experiences as I have them and then post about them a bit later, but I won't talk specific time frames. This allows me to really be in the moment, and then write about it and share it the best way I know how. Thanks so much for the support and understanding as I share! I can't wait to take you all with us on this journey! 

First appointment for the IUI is soon - if everything looks good I can start medicine. There is so much that has to happen - all this prep work and for the past few days we thought we weren't going to be able to do this cycle at all. To say it's been an emotional roller coaster is an understatement - at lunch I sat in my car and cried. What if I can't do this? What if this medicine is horrible and I don't react well to it? What if this whole process doesn't work and it's all for nothing?

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First appointment was great. I was reminded how much we love the staff at our doctor's office. Everything looks great and I can take my first pill. Instead of being worried, now I'm excited. It's time. We're starting something big.

That night, Ben and I were both tired, but I wanted to take a picture - we're starting something big! I asked Ben to smile and he goes "no babe, you always want it to be authentic - I am authentically tired right now, this is the best you get." Ha!

Tired, nervous, hopeful, excited. It might be rough and nerve-wracking and exhausting, but we want to be parents.

This is our life. This is a new beginning.

It starts now.