Ben and I have decided to pursue the IUI and we are really excited for this next step! I want to share as much with you as I can, so I'll be doing what I'm calling "belated blogging." I'll write about experiences as I have them and then post about them a bit later, but I won't talk specific time frames. This allows me to really be in the moment, and then write about it and share it the best way I know how. Thanks so much for the support and understanding as I share! I can't wait to take you all with us on this journey!
I took my first prenatal vitamin tonight. (This is what I'm calling the pre-medicine - taking vitamins well before I start anything else).
I've taken prenatals before - I tried a generic kind from the store when Ben and I first talked about having a baby - back when I thought getting pregnant would be easy. I even took them when we first started seeing the reproductive endocrinologist, but my taking them was sporadic at best, and when we were first told about the IUI, I threw them away, convinced I wouldn't need them again.
But this time was different. We have a plan of action. It's the start of something that's not a guarantee, but will be our best chance yet of pregnancy, and I'm excited.
So tonight it was more than just a pill. It was the start of a new chapter, in a story I can't wait to see unfold.
I felt calm, and happy, and even a little bit giddy. I know I'm ready for joy, but tonight I was visited by another long-lost friend.
I can feel myself changing inside - finally becoming more positive, and quietly building more strength. I know this IUI might test me - physically and emotionally. But I'm so ready.
So each night I'm going to take a vitamin, and I'm going to have more hope.
Here's to building hope - and seeing what it looks like - nine months later.