Jul 8, 2013

Building Hope

Ben and I have decided to pursue the IUI and we are really excited for this next step! I want to share as much with you as I can, so I'll be doing what I'm calling "belated blogging." I'll write about experiences as I have them and then post about them a bit later, but I won't talk specific time frames. This allows me to really be in the moment, and then write about it and share it the best way I know how. Thanks so much for the support and understanding as I share! I can't wait to take you all with us on this journey! 

I took my first prenatal vitamin tonight. (This is what I'm calling the pre-medicine - taking vitamins well before I start anything else).

I've taken prenatals before - I tried a generic kind from the store when Ben and I first talked about having a baby - back when I thought getting pregnant would be easy. I even took them when we first started seeing the reproductive endocrinologist, but my taking them was sporadic at best, and when we were first told about the IUI, I threw them away, convinced I wouldn't need them again.

But this time was different. We have a plan of action. It's the start of something that's not a guarantee, but will be our best chance yet of pregnancy, and I'm excited.

So tonight it was more than just a pill. It was the start of a new chapter, in a story I can't wait to see unfold.

I felt calm, and happy, and even a little bit giddy. I know I'm ready for joy, but tonight I was visited by another long-lost friend.

Hope.

I can feel myself changing inside - finally becoming more positive, and quietly building more strength. I know this IUI might test me - physically and emotionally. But I'm so ready.

So each night I'm going to take a vitamin, and I'm going to have more hope.

Here's to building hope - and seeing what it looks like - nine months later.

9 comments:

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

I love that you are allowing those feelings of hope to seep into your heart and soul. I know it can be scary to feel hopeful for something as you open your heart to other emotions... I am hopeful for you and Ben as well!

Kelly (She Wears a Red Sox Cap) said...

Yay, so excited for you! I am going to hope that after all you have been through that at the very least the prenatal vitamins are easy on your stomach haha, small victories I tell you.
I really feel like you WILL have a baby, and when that day comes, even when that pregnancy comes it is going to be the most excited for a pregnancy any of us have EVER been :) By us I mean all your friends and cheerleaders.

Ashley // Our Little Apartment said...

I felt a little bubble of hope and excitement rise up as I read this.

:)

S.I.F. said...

Hooray for hope! And prenatal vitamins!

Nora said...

Hope abounds; love that you are finding it in little things as you move along this big journey! xo

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

You so very much deserve to be hopeful about what's to come. Hooray!

The Many Thoughts of a Reader said...

I still take my prenatals cuz I love the benefits on my hair and nails!

Amber said...

Yay for hope!! That's never a bad thing

Kate @ SuburbanSweetheart.com said...

So happy for you guys & for this hope & for all that comes next. XOXO

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