Jul 3, 2013

Growth and rest

Holy mother the year is halfway over!

I started this year with my theme being to shimmer, and I've done so many different things to make that happen.

I gave myself time to create, I made the appearance, I promised myself to just do it, I stepped back and considered what would be next, and I talked about getting serious about saving.

So in July, I'm going to give myself some time to rest - a little mid-year relaxing if you will - and some time to recognize how far I've come.

I've been able to let things go, and really live in the moment, instead of always looking forward.

I'll be 30 in a little over two months and I'm having a blast not only planning an event but crossing things off my 30 before 30 checklist. If they don't all get done, they don't all get done. Whatevs.

I've learned to give myself time - to recover from a cold, to process a big decision, from blogging, or even from letting myself feel burdened.

Ben and I just passed our three-year "trying" anniversary. Three years or trying to have a family and being told no. But instead of bemoaning that fact, I'm focused on some cool new beginnings.

I guess my point is - mid-year like this I figured I'd have done some things and not others, and that's mostly true.

But.

I'm changing. I can feel it. My smile comes easier now, and not just because things might work out - more because I know if they don't...eventually it will be okay. It's a smile of triumph and heartbreak, of hope and fear, of confidence and questions.

I'm so comfortable in my own skin it's not even funny. And I love it. I'm loving every minute of it.

I can see glitter behind me. I can feel myself starting to shimmer.

Do you set a theme for the year or monthly intentions? How are you doing with them?

6 comments:

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

I love that you're defining a smile to be so many things. It really does give you the freedom to share that smile when you don't limit its use!

Amber said...

Aw what a lovely post! I smiled reading the whole thing! I have been setting monthly goals this year but I'm taking a break for the summer months of July and August. I just really overextended and overplanned myself May - August this year and after two crazy busy months in a row and two more coming up I'm really feeling the exhaustion. So I think less planning/goal setting for the remainder of the summer and more living in the moment and having fun is what I need!

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Love this post and the tangible sense of optimism that you are radiating! I am so happy to hear you are feeling comfortable in your skin and have the sense that everything will be ok.

I'm really happy the first half of 2013 is over. It was such a rollercoaster for me, with mostly lows and very few highs. But I have high hopes for the 2nd half of the year. I want to get back to feeling like you do right now. A year ago I felt like I was the best version of myself - I loved how I looked, felt, where I lived, what I was putting my energy into... I have drifted far from that person and need to get back to her, but hopefully I will start that process in the 2nd half of the year.

Kelly (She Wears a Red Sox Cap) said...

I am loving your positivity right now :) I am glad you will be spreading this optimism to Lisa right now! I was doing monthly goals but June and July have gotten away from me. I will go back to planning maybe in August. I needed some time off too.

I know you have a positive attitude towards your 3 year trying anniversary, but even so I'm sending positive fertility vibes your way. Hugs!

S.I.F. said...

I love that you are starting to shimmer Becky... just love it!

Kate @ SuburbanSweetheart.com said...

" I can see glitter behind me. I can feel myself starting to shimmer." Oh, what a great line.

You're so wonderful.

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