Aug 20, 2013

The everyday

As I'm moving through, the moments are bigger - bigger moments of sadness, but also bigger moments of being okay. I know I've only been blogging about this failed IUI, and in a way I hate that I can only seem to write about this, but it's all I've got in me - I need to work through this and bless all of you for reading and leaving encouraging comments.

However, there have been other things happening, things I've been thinking, etc, so I thought I'd share a few of those today (in no particular order).

*I have been reading like crazy. I set a goal of to read 50 books this year, and according to Goodreads, I've already finished 40. Granted, a lot of the ones I've read in the past few weeks have been light reads, but it's been a wonderful escape. (This might also mean an actual book review or two to come!)

*This whole IUI process has made me a slight hypochondraic. I've never had to take a lot of medicine, so it was an adjustment as we we were going through the IUI process - a pill at this time, or this time, only for a few days, then something else, etc, but I swear it's been just as much of an adjustment coming off the medicine. Between that and the acid reflux loveliness, I don't remember what it's like to feel normal anymore! Every twinge or cough sends me into "is this still an effect from the medicine? Is it okay that I feel this way? What is my body doing now?" It's enough to drive a person crazy. Get your sh*t together, self!

*I've been dreaming about what I want to do next with this blog - I'm thinking maybe an eventual move to Wordpress? Stay tuned!

*The everyday is what's pulling me through. There's drudgery in routine but there can also be a whole lot of comfort in it. I'm finding happiness in small things right now - like an adorable purse that was on sale for $9 (you know I couldn't make that up!), a free drink at Starbucks, or wearing my favorite pants.
*I ordered this shirt from So Worth Loving a few weeks ago and to say I'm obsessed is a bit of an understatement. (I want this one, and this one, and this one for yoga!) I love finding companies that have incredible messages and I love the message - you are worthy of love - they're spreading! They're hoping to launch a tour across the country to spread their message and now have a fund you can contribute to - how cool would it be to meet these lovely people?!

*Through So Worth Loving, I found The Giving Keys - holy mother of incredible! How did I not know this existed until now? They employ people who are trying to transition out of homelessness, and they use recycled keys for their jewelry. The whole point is to give your key away when you feel you are "finished" with it, or simply that it's time to share that thought with someone else. (I love this bracelet). How amazing is this? I want to buy one for everyone I know!

*Saved By the Bell is on instant Netflix and while a lot of my time re-visiting episodes was spent laughing at the dialogue, I found the episode where Jesse Spano gets hooked on caffeine pills and I spent the whole night saying "I'm so excited! I'm so excited! I'm so....scared!" Best. Episode. Ever.

*The past few days have been cooler and I feel like fall is making an early appearance for me. It's about this time every year that I start yearning for it - the leaves, the crisp air, the lightness that comes with my step with the weather changes - and although I know there's a chance it might still be warm for awhile, this weather is healing my soul.

What's going on with your every day?


Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

I am glad you have had some good every day moments to break up the sea of sadness you are in... I understand why your posts are IUI-centric. It's what you are thinking and feeling, so it's what you should be writing about. I feel the same way about how much I have written about my move or my injuries. I feel like people are probably tired of hearing about how much I dislike Charlotte, but it's on my mind all the time, so it's what I write about.

Kelly said...

Remember, it's your blog and you can write about what you want. Of course we all wish you were blogging about something else, only because we wish this wasn't happening to you! I'm glad you are finding some good to get you through all the days. I always find a lot of comfort in routine. I could never be someone who stayed home from work several days after something bad happened, the routine comforts me and gets me on the road to recovery. Hugs your way!

Kate @ said...

I love the arrival of pseudo-fall; it's making me really happy, too. I'm so glad you're saving the moments of happiness & things that lift you up. Try not to worry about only writing about IUI (or anything else, for that matter). It's your space for your thoughts, & those of us who love & know you will be here through it all. xoxo <3

Nora said...

Ooo, the Giving Keys IS totally awesome. I love it when there are new great groups to follow and fall in love with.

My everyday... reading. Working out (even on days where I feel meh about it. It makes me feel better and stronger and kind of like a Kelly Clarkson song!). Emailing/texting with amazing friends. Making plans with Knight for the present and a little bit for the future. Looking forward to the fall as it's going to be a whirlwind with a trip out of town, a friend's wedding reception, my 30th and then our vacation!

And also re: your writing? Keep doing what you are doing, my friend. If it helps that is all that matters and you know we will all rally around you, always and forever.

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

I think anyone who reads your blog or who knows you understands why you're using this space to help process what's going on in your life. I feel honored I get a glimpse into this part of your life. That said, I'm happy to see that you are LIVING your life and finding happiness in other ways. My recommendation: DEFINITELY move over to Wordpress. I ditched Blogger a number of years ago and it was the best blogging-related decision I have made to date. Hands down.

Amber said...

I agree that the every day can be so so comforting sometimes. Lately it's felt really stifling to me. I've just had such a busy summer, I think I'm ready for some true EVERY DAY routines to pop up in my life as lately the day to day has all felt very different and slightly chaotic (this may have something to do with my in laws visiting right now).

And ditto to above commenters who said write what you want and definitely write what you feel!

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