Dec 24, 2014

In the spirit of the season

Dear Cece,

I've been thinking of you a lot lately.

A year ago today we were told your heart rate was not where it should be, and there was a good possibility at some point it would stop beating completely.

The doctor was wearing a Santa hat. The nurse handed me tissues when I started to cry.

It's almost surreal now; there was a time I couldn't imagine thinking of you without sadness, yet now you always bring a smile to my face.

The excitement we have for your brother does not diminish the loss of you. 

I firmly believe you had a hand in us being blessed with him, and I promise he will know you.

There are a lot of people hurting during the holidays - I know it's a lot to ask, but if you could bring some peace to them, or a moment of hope, I know they would appreciate it. I'm determined to do that myself this season - we'll work as a team, you and me.

Merry Christmas, sweet girl. Thank you for being in our lives - we were forever changed by your presence.

All my love,
Mom

6 comments:

Tammy Roney said...

This post brought tears to my eyes. Happy Holidays!

Kelly (She Wears a Red Sox Cap) said...

<3

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

Big hugs, Becky, to you and Ben this holiday season.

Emily said...

so sweet. God bless you andyour sweet little family today, and always. Merry Christmas!

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

I'm sending lots of love and hugs your way. This was so beautifully written. I know this week between Christmas and New Years is just full of painful memories from last year... I know you'll never forget Cece and will always honor the memory of your little angel in heaven.

Amber said...

Beautifully written as always. xoxo

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