Feb 9, 2015
How big is baby: In the past two weeks Lemon has gone from the size of a large eggplant, to a butternut squash, and is now the size of a large cabbage.
Anxious about: This isn't so much anxiety, but I am having some serious baby envy. Don't get me wrong, I want Lemon to be full-term and completely healthy but oh my gosh I'm so ready for it to be time for us to have him! The logical part of my brain knows not to wish this time away (because um, money and sleep deprivation, and enjoy the last few weeks of just the two of you), but my heart is like "let's go, let's go, let's go!" It's taken us almost five years to get here and I'm afraid these last two months are going to draaaag.
I'm trying to revel in the little moments until then: knowing I have a doctor's appointment every two weeks (and then weekly, closer to the end), which means we can hear his heartbeat way more often, our birth class, and a few showers that are coming up. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time because I know it will go faster than I think.
Diet/Cravings/Aversions: Not too much that I have to avoid, and still on the craving fruits and veggie train. Oh, and we've had french toast as breakfast for dinner a few times lately and mmm, so good!
Movement: By far my favorite part of pregnancy. He's getting more active throughout the day, and usually there's at least once or twice a day where the movement makes me laugh and say, "what are you doing in there buddy?" I'm interested to see if I can recognize any movements he does when he's here to see if they match any of the craziness I feel now.
The belly: Growing! I am definitely moving slower than I used to, and when I get out of bed or up off a low chair there is usually some grunting involved!
Miscellaneous: Honestly, it's been a rough couple of weeks. Thinking back there have been more hard moments than not, (with a quick trip to the hospital thrown in for good measure), and I think the back and forth is what exhausts me so easily; one night I'll feel incredibly rested and the next it's like I didn't sleep at all, or one day I'll have a lot of energy and the next it's hard getting out of bed. But I'm in the "30s" now and there is light at the end of the tunnel. I can do this!
Things that made me cry/laugh: I am constantly amazed at how incredible my husband is - this pregnancy has definitely brought us closer, and as much as I feel like I'm already making sacrifices for our son, Ben has matched me step for step. Every time I wake up during the night to go to the bathroom he'll say "you okay babe?" or "do you need help?" (A lot of times he will give me a supportive hand to help get me out of bed!) I'll wake him up because one of my hips hurts and he'll massage it until it feels better - even if it's 3 AM and he's only been asleep for a couple of hours.
When I call Ben in tears saying, "oh my gosh I can't be pregnant for another 10 weeks, I'm exhausted how can I do this," he talks me down, and reminds me of how far I've come and how proud he is of me.
We had a dusting of snow one morning and Ben left before I did; when I went outside to my car he'd already cleaned it off for me (and put gas in it the night before). It was so considerate I almost cried. I'm so so grateful for this man.
Best moment of the week: Surprisingly, I think it was our visit to labor and delivery. I'm sure I wouldn't be saying this if it had been more of a scare, but I'm grateful we got to see what it would be like when we deliver - from the nurses (amazing), to what kinds of procedures to expect (blood pressure monitoring, blood draws, etc.) and especially to what I'm now referring to as "the kick seen 'round the world," it ended up being a really reassuring visit and I'll take it!
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