I'm going to say something that surprises even me, yet is absolutely and completely true.
Pregnancy is the hardest thing I've ever done.
Are you already wanted and loved fiercely? Absolutely. Do you already make your Dad and me laugh about small silly things? Completely. But I'll tell you, I'm surprised at how physically hard it's been - it took us so long to get pregnant with you, I assumed this pregnancy wouldn't be that difficult, and for the most part it hasn't been, but wow, is your Mom exhausted.
Yesterday found us heading to labor and delivery at the hospital where you'll be born. I felt okay, but there were some symptoms our doctor wanted to monitor, so off we went. Something...unusual happened while we were there.
I wasn't panicked, or anxious, or even freaked out.
You had been moving around all day, so I was confident you would be fine. For the first time in this pregnancy, I wasn't worried about you - it was like you'd anticipated this visit so had given me extra signals that all was okay.
The nurses were incredible - they took my blood pressure, drew some blood, and then strapped a monitor to my stomach so we could hear your heartbeat for awhile.
As I sat in the bed listening to you, I thought "we'll get to do this again in several weeks, only for a way cooler reason." We heard a baby crying and your Dad and I just smiled at each other. I told him I wanted you fully cooked but man am I excited to meet you!
You'd been moving around a lot (we kept laughing how the sound got louder as you re-positioned yourself each time), and right after I said I was excited to meet you, you kicked right where the monitor was on my stomach, as if you agreed. I couldn't stop laughing!
It's been a hard few days, but I'll make you a deal. I'll take the sleepless nights and the achey hips, and the congestion that just won't end, if you keep growing big and strong, deal?
When we came home last night it was after hearing the nurse tell me all my labs looked great, and that your heart rate was gorgeous. (Coming from a labor and delivery nurse that's a mighty fine compliment my friend).
We love you Lemonhead. Keep growing, keep kicking, and know we've got nothing but love for you.