Apr 13, 2015
How big is baby: He is now officially the size of a mini-watermelon. Holy. Crap.
Anxious about: Being at work. Last week I started working from home Mondays and Fridays - knowing I only have to physically be in the office three days a week has done wonders for my mental exhaustion - but at this point I'm 39 weeks, I'm ready to have this baby, and I hate the feeling of being "watched," because everyone's waiting for me to go into labor. Plus, I am over all the comments from strangers who think they're being funny. The snark has definitely come out, and I no longer apologize for it.
I had an epiphany yesterday though - for as much as I want to have Lemon and am ready for the next step, I think the bigger issue is I'm BORED. Books don't hold my attention, I don't want to start anything new to knit because I won't have the patience for a pattern, my house is beyond "nested" (let's be real - I made a three-page to-do list months ago, and that's done), we are as ready as we're going to be, and I feel like I have nothing left to do!
Anticipating: Having Lemon! The next part! People say "get sleep now, because soon that will change." Well I'm not really sleeping now so he might as well be here - at least then I have a cute, snuggly, reason to be so tired!
Diets/cravings/aversions: Luckily enough, still not too much I have to avoid. Loving the fruits and veggies, but equally loving candy - ha!
Movement: Oh my gosh with the movement! The other night he was kicking and moving so much I swear it was a dance party! Ben kept looking at my stomach and saying, "oh my gosh, what are you doing?" It was almost to the point of being uncomfortable, but I just kept laughing, because I remember for so long I was worried I would never feel movement, and now there was so much of it!
The belly: Ohh, the belly. Growing, growing, every day. I have definitely dropped since last week, and Lemon is getting heavier every day!
Miscellaneous: I had a decent amount of back pain this weekend, but it's been dull aches and soreness, nothing that comes and goes (which in my mind is more contraction-like). I don't know if that will mean anything at my appointment today (I don't want to get my hopes up like last week - see below). I'm prepared for a lot of my labor to be in my back, I just wish I had something definitive where I could say, "oh yes, THIS is the start of labor," or "ah, I know what's happening now." It's crazy how different it is for each woman!
Things that made me laugh/cry: Last Monday was a bad day. I have my doctor's appointments on Monday mornings, but I was in tears before we even left the house because I was exhausted and uncomfortable and really needed to be done. I'd had some back pain that faded the Saturday before so I was really hoping to hear that I was a teeny bit dilated or effaced (or something!) when we went to the doctor, but I wasn't at all. Then we come home and there was a leak in our downstairs bathroom ceiling. I may or may not have spent the majority of the day in tears.
Best moment of the week: The next day I gave myself a little pep talk. I told myself this is like the "two-week wait" we had to endure after each of our IUIs. (The two weeks after the procedure itself, but before you can have blood drawn to see if you're pregnant). However, there will be a baby at the end of this two weeks (instead of just a maybe positive test), and I'm not having to take progesterone during this time - I can do this! Right now I'm taking it day by day but I'm pretty proud of myself for being able to put everything in perspective.
Also, we talked to our niece this weekend and while the whole conversation was hilarious, one of the things we were told was, "when the baby is kicking really hard it's probably because he's dancing like you do in the car." Oh my gosh, we could not stop laughing!
Labels: pregnancy take two