Aug 10, 2015

A smile for our girl

Dear Cecelia,

One year ago was my due date with you. It's crazy to think of everything that's happened in the last twelve months.

For so long when I thought of you, all I could feel was longing and despair. Eventually that gave way to sadness, which softened over time, and even brought me peace. Now when I think of you, my first reaction is a smile - after all, you're my girl!

If we could, we would have both you and your brother here with us. I can smile when I think of you now, because I know you played a big role in getting him to us.

Parks (we call him that, just like we call you Cece), has a bright pink birthmark on the back of his shoulder. Those who have known me since I was little say, "Ohh it's just like the one you had on your cheek!" I smile and nod, because yes, it does look like the birthmark I had for most of my life.

However, someone once told me birthmarks are angel kisses - so I think of that as his "Cece kiss" - a physical sign of love from you to us, with your brother as the messenger. It makes my heart happy every time I see it, and even if it grows smaller and fades (as mine did), I will never forget the joy it brings me.

I carried you for such a short time, but you changed our lives in so many ways.

We love you sweet girl. You are in our hearts - always.

Love,
Mom

6 comments:

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

What a sweet letter to your little angle. I am glad that you've found a place of peace but I know the road to getting to that point was paved with heart break. Thinking of you guys and your little angle! I love the idea of Parker's birth mark being an angle kiss!

Amber said...

I love the idea of birth marks being an angel kiss. Sending big hugs to you guys on this difficult day. xoxo

Nora said...

Definitely agree that birth marks are angel kisses. This made me cry- the "you're my girl!" line... something my mom said to me. Cece is so loved. SO LOVED. I hope she feels it today and that you feel the love, too. xo

Kate @ GreatestEscapist.com said...

This is so beautiful, Becky, & I love the idea of Parker having an "angel kiss" from his sister.

The Many Thoughts of a Reader said...

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Katelin said...

all the hugs, love this. xoxo

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